He is at the Helm

Life certainly takes some twists and turns… and dumps into the river, and falls off the cliff.

Searing heights, and devastating bottom-dwelling lows are also on this journey. I’m grateful for the balance, and yes, even the sad and frustrating times.

I really believe that if everything was status quo most of the time, we’d learn zilch. We would never appreciate the easy times. It really about navigating the extremes, and holding on until the path straightens, and you get out of the gravel.

I’d really like to think life will calm. It will, but I need to learn to take better breaths when it does.

I have been dealing with varying degrees of advocacy for family members for over 10 years. It is

not something I ever thought I would have to face, let alone for this amount of time. a horrible movement disorder, suffered a tragic fall, and her ultimate death from breast cancer. I have been advocating for my dad for the last 10 years in some form or another. I advocated for my beloved grandmother, when all but one of her 5 children bailed on her during her battle with pancreatic cancer. I advocated for my mom, who struggled with a disabling movement disorder, suffered a tragic fall, and also ultimately lost her battle to breast cancer. One grandchild is on my radar now…. and it seems like an impossible situation…..

But God. The author of the universe, and the one who aligns the stars.

He can keep the planets hung in the heavens, and He can also watch over a little boy.

One of the places I can find that peace and a steady knowing is along a shoreline. The waters seem so vast, and the sky seems to go on forever. If my God can command the currents… the mighty waves that course their way to and from the depth of oceans…. He can surely take control over my little problems.

It seems the issues we have with this world stem from a belief that we should always be happy. Have zero problems. Not only is that not possible… its delusional. Also, how can we possibly appreciate the good, if we don’t have the hard? The difficult and sometimes, the impossible. That is miracle ground.

God does His best work in the impossible.

I am waiting to see what He is going to do. He’s never failed yet.